A break? Maybe an excuse for my laziness!!

After writing my last post, I realised I do need to need a small break as the tone and setting for my blog was getting too heavy. It wasn't meant to be like this. Anyway, I am back! TADAHHHhhhhhhh! Perhaps my sis's return has some effects on me. But the week had passed by too fast. She is back in Australia now. So now I must spend this 2 months, getting my ticket to go see her when she graduates in Sept. Looking forward to it as I had promised my father on his deathbed that I will not let her be at her convocation alone.
Actually the past few weeks, nights had been a terrible time for me. I don't know why I keep getting flashbacks of my father's last days. And when I finally managed to shake it off, I was already very much exhausted. But today, this afternoon, as I was lying down in my living room, I was looking out of my windows, I saw the last few days' dark clouds had dispersed and there were lights coming out of the clouds. My spirits lifted up considerably too. I felt perhaps this was a sign that I should finally move on after the last few month's misery and sadness.
As I lie down in bed with Amber earlier, I still get the occasional sadness coming awash at me but at least tonight, I am not dwelling on it. I did not need to spend a lot of efforts in trying to overcome it. The lump in my throat doesn't seem that diffcult to swallow.
This is Amber looking out to the garden on my brother in law's wedding day. Nice. I LIKE IT